Jesus. I feel so uninspired. I have all of this want to create something, but I have nothing. I have no vision, I have no ideas, I have nothing. It’s really disconcerting. I’m really bored with my mind.
I think this may be due to a lack of stimulation, especially being out of school. I don’t entertain myself with new information, and I think this has really hindered my creativity.
I also have reason to speculate that perhaps this is due to major changes in my general self. I mean, I’ve noticed quite recently that my living situation and other contributing social factors are completely opposite of what they had been nearly three years ago. I’m wondering if my creativity got washed away with all the other negative feelings I had. That maybe my artsy-fartsy shit was a bi-product of my “depressed” state of mind and other disillusions I had.
In any case, this is all merely a loose hypothesis. I could be completely off the mark.
Nevertheless, I can’t create things and it is frustrating beyond belief, especially since I have all this free time on my hands.